Fatal Demands

Maybe this is just me thinking
but I think it is time I go home
Secrets I've failed to reveal, are real
but not real enough to let you get that close to me
and I'm sorry that I've structured walls
With framed images of us holding hands
it was a mistake and I know you'll understand
You said you needed to know why
when my eyes failed to navigate into your arms
it was a fatal crash and I bit my tongue but I mean't no harm
I drove with all intentions to love you but honey I just can't
and I am guilty of confusion, dishonesty and awkward silence
I'm sorry I've never given you a straight answer
I just smiled and held your hand
it was a mistake and I know you'll understand
And it's been such a time of pleasure, it almost perfectly aligned
but when I look at you I don't see me and it's more fatal to keep trying
It's only fair that I'd be lonely a while, in a watchtower out at sea
You deserve the real thing, not a framed photograph of what was not meant to be
We'll un-mend to be mended again, I am so sorry it has come to this demand
I so much loved curling my lips up to you but it was a mistake
I'm going home
I know you'll understand