Sometimes

sometimes
every day
i see you through you
and I wonder how this could be
how you could not see
that this love is bottled in glass
how long will this last?
and I've got so much time
to sit and watch you dance
holding hands, romance
but sometimes
everyday
i think about you
smiling and holding on tight
sometimes you're just right
a nibble, a bite
a wrinkle in the sheets at night
it happens
you're not even my friend
and i see right through you
looking through me
there is no future to believe
and no past to photograph
we're just a laugh
we're just a laugh
two bottles on the shelf in the back
sometimes
everyday
i think about you moving away
and I can't say that I'll miss you
enough to ask you to stay
it happens
we just met
through irony and loneliness
it will pass
we'll see through this empty past
find a way to make love smash
shatter like glass
and sometimes
on these lust filled nights
i think about
how long this will last

Fatal Demands

Maybe this is just me thinking
but I think it is time I go home
Secrets I've failed to reveal, are real
but not real enough to let you get that close to me
and I'm sorry that I've structured walls
With framed images of us holding hands
it was a mistake and I know you'll understand
You said you needed to know why
when my eyes failed to navigate into your arms
it was a fatal crash and I bit my tongue but I mean't no harm
I drove with all intentions to love you but honey I just can't
and I am guilty of confusion, dishonesty and awkward silence
I'm sorry I've never given you a straight answer
I just smiled and held your hand
it was a mistake and I know you'll understand
And it's been such a time of pleasure, it almost perfectly aligned
but when I look at you I don't see me and it's more fatal to keep trying
It's only fair that I'd be lonely a while, in a watchtower out at sea
You deserve the real thing, not a framed photograph of what was not meant to be
We'll un-mend to be mended again, I am so sorry it has come to this demand
I so much loved curling my lips up to you but it was a mistake
I'm going home
I know you'll understand

Geometric

When there is a time for words
Silence rolls it's tumble weed
on a desolate street
where it belongs
Where do we belong, here?
and why do you know my name?
I feel those eyes watching time
Every step I make is geometric
and you wait for that mistake
I'll make when I fall
for every pleading word you say.

Now when the truth rolls in
I'll lead every sentence and begin
Roll out a blue print
With a map, where do we belong?
By the shape of our palms
You've got it all wrong
because I can never be her
and I can never be the one
Yet, here we are
Filling voids with sweet mistakes
and I know your name
and every geometric angle of your heart
No room for two
So I tip-toe around like so
Careful not to spill my love
Where ever we go
Until you go
Where you belong

Flames

How could I have doubted you
could be the one for me?
I thought I saw a ghost
but that was just me
I realize now, if its not too late
I'd like to build you a castle
and keep you from leaving today

I would throw myself under a train
once those words fall from your tongue
How could I have doubted
that you could be the one
We swallowed the night and watched our home burn
I blamed you but you said not a word
and in your silence flames praised our home
I knew right then you did not burn it alone

How could I have doubted you
could be the one for me?
I thought I saw a ghost
but that was just me
I realize now, if its not too late
I'd like to build you a castle
and keep you from leaving today

I would fight in every war
Once your empty eyes look away
How could I have doubted you
could be the one for me?
I stand beside our river bed
Waiting and collecting stones to throw
count the ripples until you decide it's time to go
I wish I could've been everything
but a ghost, they never show
You have been the one for me
How could I have not known?

Home

And it starts
the cracks in the cement, the falling sky
our eyes keep glowing, now down we go
follow us if you want to survive
where we meet
you'll find is where you we're headed
and far, far from home
you're not alone
so if you change your mind
sleepy child in your lacy crib
it's coming, it's coming on
soon it's coming home

Here We Are, Where Are We?

Where can we rest?
When does this ground stop it's motion?
Now you're holding my hand
I'm in your bed
There is a song stuck in my head
but I can't sing it aloud
I find out how
You breath in numbers when you sleep
This humors me and you find a way in
Hey, how have you been?
before I knew you?
What was the last note you played?
Is it okay if I stayed?
Take a look outside, the sun is rising
I am smiling, can you tell I am hiding?
The wrinkles in your sheets I am happy to meet
as long as you're next to me
as long as you're next to me
as long as your
body is close to mine, just this time
but you should probably know
there is a crack in your ceiling
and I can't help but thinking
if the crack in mine gives you the same feeling
because this whole city is falling apart
and I find beauty in the shape it makes
the risk we're willing to take
the loud noises beyond the window gate
the way it puts you to sleep
and our palms meet
touching neck to feet
it's all beautiful to me
the lines from the light through your window
projected like paper on the wall
I write to you sincerely
Were you here all along?
p.s. Will we last through this song? Do you already know?
If so, let me go
If so, wait a few moments if you're willing
So I can paint the crack on your ceiling
I find it surprisingly appealing
I'll frame it perfectly, hang it next to mine
can you walk me home now please,
if you don't mind?

Poorly Wrapped Sore

So tie me to the trunk of the trees we've planted
I've seen the world in every way but today it's slightly slanted
and your eyes sparkle like rust in the sun
I've found a reason to believe it's just begun
Yeah the moon never looked at me quite like this before
tonight I'm the apple and you're the seedy gritty core
tomorrow we'll stick together like a poorly wrapped sore
and find our chance to follow through with this war

So it seems,
we've gathered stones and ink
bagged them up, watched them fly then sink
and it's so hard to believe we didn't even try
to feel up our pride and say good-bye
nature as we're told is just a few billion years old
according to these wheezing trees we've grown
but we've raised our ignorant fists with pride towards the sun
it proved a few billion means we've only just begun
so welcome home, welcome home, welcome home
You've finally made it here
The kitchen is a mess and the water is not clear
I am your wrecking ball waiting at the end of the night
to help justify these operations and satisfy this pointless fight
and your eyes sparkle like rust in the sun
we wiped our hands and blamed the speechless ones
I've found a reason to believe it's all just begun
So step away and lay down that loaded gun

Yeah the moon never looked at me quite like this before
Tonight I'm the apple and you're the seedy gritty core
unchain these questions and unlock that door
tomorrow we'll stick together like a poorly wrapped sore
and find our chance to follow through with this war

Noose

You find it
scraping like gravel against your face
everything you think you know
is lost, not misplaced
i think I fell in love
I think I lost the war
but if there was nothing there
what am i searching for?
I found a fossil of truth
battered and abused
Left to be discovered
hanging by your fucking noose
and this time I'm discovering
that you covered up your tracks
you're not turning back
and this long treck is over
destination truth
No hands to hold
No heart to own
Fuck, I'm alone
Thought I'd make it back home
thought I'd make it well known
I've worn the armor I've out grown
so don't think of me darling
that old noose i've untied
if you're hiding your heart
I'd be searching for lies
cause we both know you've lost it
and I've lost interest in clues
I'm leaving this war tonight
and accepting we both loose

Always Wins

Looking at the world, I finally have time
to put myself aside
and here I rest in this broken chair
wondering what I'm doing here
I've taken a chance, opened my heart
now he's going far and here we are
I am
sorry but I'm not sorry enough
I did what I could and now it is time to erupt
and he ghosts this world without a past
to paint all the colors he's been trying to cast
and I'll paint him spreading that uncertain smile
something I've longed to see for a while
with myself put aside
I carve every root with a lie
because I know the world as it seems
and he was all I would ever need
accepting enough is never enough
but sometimes life make the truth rough
and this city once promised more
with all it's colors all I can see are doors
and this broken chair I rest in
Has become my dearest friend and,
The truth wins in the end, it always wins in the end
So, rock away my friend

Shouldn't it?

There is this place we find ourselves
standing alone
no bottle to hold
and the world seems so strange just then
the roundness is now flattened
and every song falls apart
like an off beat heart
what's going on?
it won't be long till we all crack
imperfection is a big come-back
looking at old photographs
everything was such a god damn laugh
but we lost touch and settled down
tell me, are you happy now?
sitting on your settled couch?
wondering where you'd be now
if they never told you how
when or why
you're supposed to die?
and while our poor souls are driven by fear
running away to be far from here
here becomes our buried jars
hiding who we really are
and soon we all realize there's no turning back
for your own good remember that
those empty eyes we stare into
had every intention to follow through
had every intention to remember you
standing alone
with not a thing to hold
but listen,
hold on anyway
you're supposed to die, sometime
we're all supposed to die
doesnt matter when or why
shouldn't just knowing that
make you
feel more alive?

Goodbye Sandbox

Flickering, static
feeling the vibrations
around me
following footsteps
of strangers
found myself headed towards no where
but this place
was once
my battleground
now i'm running
headed towards
nowhere
to find something
that will
prove that i've
done nothing wrong
and your singing
matches my heart beat
and the noise from the churches
tickle my ear drums
but im listening
to everyone
everywhere
following them all
headed no where
but the thing
i find most appealing
is
happiness
happiness
happiness
..
so dont tell me no
dont tell me i cant go
dont tell me im not ready
because
you see
these footsteps i am following
will come back to me
and i'll pretend
this battleground
was only my kindergarten playground
and i've left the sandbox
i'm done playing this game
i hear it calling
i see it falling
im taking the chance
so dont you dare step foot in my path
don't you dare tell me i've gone too far
you
know
who
the
fuck
you
are

Answers

Be it as it may
The followers of untouched trails
Find yourself a diamond
Let it be
Be it as it may
The calling for a calling
Find yourself waiting
Lose the best you've ever had
Be it as it may
The words you spill of wisdom
Catch yourself drowning
Stuck thinking too much
Be it as it may
The world will never stop
Wait for yourself too long
and die where you are

Simply Perfect

You've got so many speeches
Words that flutter around bleeding peace
Gave your key to the seekers
You followed her home
Landed in sheets, neatly spread
You held her hand as you dream't
There must have been darker nights, brighter stars
You found her, you found her
Laying in your arms and the time on the clock
Handed you the numbers back
There is no need to look here any more
Where you are is simply perfect
An image rare indeed, she's found your key
She loves you, She loves you
But one night you failed to sleep
Saw a light in the distance out of your window
Uncertain of the distance, you stood at edge
Looked back once and decided to go
As the night began to weaken you ran, faster and faster
The light was fading, the wind picked up
You seem to be close but the sun is rising
And you're losing focus
Tomorrow is making it's way to your destination
You have to get there, you have to make it
And you will
Then suddenly you crash, looking up
You've found it, you've found it now
Only to find the numbers on the clock have been replaced
With a simple message attached
"No looking back" signed-her
And an image of her sleeping
Beside her an empty invitation
But you got the message
She loved you, She loved you
she knew all along there where stars much brighter
Places in dreams that exist, something true
Because that's how she found you
Simply perfect

Un Ange De France

She fell from the sky
The grass molded her shape and she laid
Felt the world holding her body down
Heavy and sound
This is what heaven must be like
She thought
This must be how angels dream
Beautifully serene
She took a deep breath
The air filled her with heart and she smiled
Felt the vibrations of the ground
Living and found
This is what music must be like
She said
This is why they strive to be alive
Afraid to die
Looking towards the sky she whispered a hint
laissez-moi rester ici juste une plus de nuit
Feeling the leaves rustle
Seeing the tiniest life in it's largest form
Molded into a solid shape a new world is born
And angels dream
Dream of ways to feel alive
What a place this must be
Where it is beautiful to die
She laid in awe
As rain drops trickled down her cheek
Closed her eyes and smiled
Dear world take into me
Her eyes matched the stars
Her soul the grass and the trees
She signaled the ships in the distance
"Please, do not fail to perceive"
Because the moon surely will fade
As will the stars in the sky
But the beauty is everywhere
Holding both you and I
And angels dream
Dream of ways to feel alive
What a place this must be
Where it is beautiful to die
Where every element matters
And every piece is in place
Where imperfect is still perfect
And every heartbeat's a race
She stood from the ground
Aimed her face towards the sun
Cher monde,
Je suis vivant! Je suis vivant!

I Just Wanna Be Your Lover

She's happy, she says
in her creaseless black dress
following the moon with her eyes
she's fine, she's fine
the world melts in two
caught her staring at you
sewed by the sight, she says
it's alright, hey, it's alright
you found peace in her songs
as she connects palm to palm
but the truth you can't face
knows some voids can't be replaced
and she'll smile and wave
claiming to be happy again
but this time theres no moon
no sunlight to swoon
only the reflections of a touch
that were far too self involved
silence creeps where the camera waits
a surprise ending and the flashes penetrate
wearing your last minute tuxedo vest
she's happy, she says.