Just Enough of Too Little

Reds & Greens

2012-01-17T17:24:00.000-08:00

The suns setting behind the city's silhouette
Your face lit up with lights from the screen
it's not a secret I feel you're falling into me
A silent landing, I'd say, welcome
You've been falling for quite some time
The exit closer than sentences we piece together
and I can only wish to find our escape
Is it fate?
This way we stumbled upon our loneliness
Finding ourselves making sense
Now you're shaking your head no
Because my footsteps inch towards the backlit moon
Quiet waves will punctuate, and I'll get back to you soon
But the unpaved streets call my name
Assuming I should hop a few blocks more
Erase the smeared markings I scraped on your bathroom floor
Now you're looking around and i'm trying to be strong
If I'm wrong, let my absence fade into our favorite song
and I promise to think of you when that song carries on
Is it fate?
How our scrambled words fit together?
That our mistakes somehow made this slip feel better?
Is it fate that I find you to be the most beautiful
In the morning when the suns just peaking through
and the little hairs on your shoulder glow
I almost loved you, you know

Sometimes

2011-12-29T08:41:00.001-08:00

sometimes
every day
i see you through you
and I wonder how this could be
how you could not see
that this love is bottled in glass
how long will this last?
and I've got so much time
to sit and watch you dance
holding hands, romance
but sometimes
everyday
i think about you
smiling and holding on tight
sometimes you're just right
a nibble, a bite
a wrinkle in the sheets at night
it happens
you're not even my friend
and i see right through you
looking through me
there is no future to believe
and no past to photograph
we're just a laugh
we're just a laugh
two bottles on the shelf in the back
sometimes
everyday
i think about you moving away
and I can't say that I'll miss you
enough to ask you to stay
it happens
we just met
through irony and loneliness
it will pass
we'll see through this empty past
find a way to make love smash
shatter like glass
and sometimes
on these lust filled nights
i think about
how long this will last

Fatal Demands

2011-12-06T07:07:00.001-08:00

Maybe this is just me thinking
but I think it is time I go home
Secrets I've failed to reveal, are real
but not real enough to let you get that close to me
and I'm sorry that I've structured walls
With framed images of us holding hands
it was a mistake and I know you'll understand
You said you needed to know why
when my eyes failed to navigate into your arms
it was a fatal crash and I bit my tongue but I mean't no harm
I drove with all intentions to love you but honey I just can't
and I am guilty of confusion, dishonesty and awkward silence
I'm sorry I've never given you a straight answer
I just smiled and held your hand
it was a mistake and I know you'll understand
And it's been such a time of pleasure, it almost perfectly aligned
but when I look at you I don't see me and it's more fatal to keep trying
It's only fair that I'd be lonely a while, in a watchtower out at sea
You deserve the real thing, not a framed photograph of what was not meant to be
We'll un-mend to be mended again, I am so sorry it has come to this demand
I so much loved curling my lips up to you but it was a mistake
I'm going home
I know you'll understand

Geometric

2011-11-29T10:09:00.000-08:00

When there is a time for words
Silence rolls it's tumble weed
on a desolate street
where it belongs
Where do we belong, here?
and why do you know my name?
I feel those eyes watching time
Every step I make is geometric
and you wait for that mistake
I'll make when I fall
for every pleading word you say.

Now when the truth rolls in
I'll lead every sentence and begin
Roll out a blue print
With a map, where do we belong?
By the shape of our palms
You've got it all wrong
because I can never be her
and I can never be the one
Yet, here we are
Filling voids with sweet mistakes
and I know your name
and every geometric angle of your heart
No room for two
So I tip-toe around like so
Careful not to spill my love
Where ever we go
Until you go
Where you belong

Flames

2011-11-18T11:07:00.000-08:00

How could I have doubted you
could be the one for me?
I thought I saw a ghost
but that was just me
I realize now, if its not too late
I'd like to build you a castle
and keep you from leaving today

I would throw myself under a train
once those words fall from your tongue
How could I have doubted
that you could be the one
We swallowed the night and watched our home burn
I blamed you but you said not a word
and in your silence flames praised our home
I knew right then you did not burn it alone

How could I have doubted you
could be the one for me?
I thought I saw a ghost
but that was just me
I realize now, if its not too late
I'd like to build you a castle
and keep you from leaving today

I would fight in every war
Once your empty eyes look away
How could I have doubted you
could be the one for me?
I stand beside our river bed
Waiting and collecting stones to throw
count the ripples until you decide it's time to go
I wish I could've been everything
but a ghost, they never show
You have been the one for me
How could I have not known?

Home

2011-10-17T13:03:00.001-07:00

And it starts
the cracks in the cement, the falling sky
our eyes keep glowing, now down we go
follow us if you want to survive
where we meet
you'll find is where you we're headed
and far, far from home
you're not alone
so if you change your mind
sleepy child in your lacy crib
it's coming, it's coming on
soon it's coming home

Here We Are, Where Are We?

2011-08-24T10:20:00.000-07:00

Where can we rest?
When does this ground stop it's motion?
Now you're holding my hand
I'm in your bed
There is a song stuck in my head
but I can't sing it aloud
I find out how
You breath in numbers when you sleep
This humors me and you find a way in
Hey, how have you been?
before I knew you?
What was the last note you played?
Is it okay if I stayed?
Take a look outside, the sun is rising
I am smiling, can you tell I am hiding?
The wrinkles in your sheets I am happy to meet
as long as you're next to me
as long as you're next to me
as long as your
body is close to mine, just this time
but you should probably know
there is a crack in your ceiling
and I can't help but thinking
if the crack in mine gives you the same feeling
because this whole city is falling apart
and I find beauty in the shape it makes
the risk we're willing to take
the loud noises beyond the window gate
the way it puts you to sleep
and our palms meet
touching neck to feet
it's all beautiful to me
the lines from the light through your window
projected like paper on the wall
I write to you sincerely
Were you here all along?
p.s. Will we last through this song? Do you already know?
If so, let me go
If so, wait a few moments if you're willing
So I can paint the crack on your ceiling
I find it surprisingly appealing
I'll frame it perfectly, hang it next to mine
can you walk me home now please,
if you don't mind?

Poorly Wrapped Sore

2011-05-26T16:52:00.000-07:00

So tie me to the trunk of the trees we've planted
I've seen the world in every way but today it's slightly slanted
and your eyes sparkle like rust in the sun
I've found a reason to believe it's just begun
Yeah the moon never looked at me quite like this before
tonight I'm the apple and you're the seedy gritty core
tomorrow we'll stick together like a poorly wrapped sore
and find our chance to follow through with this war

So it seems,
we've gathered stones and ink
bagged them up, watched them fly then sink
and it's so hard to believe we didn't even try
to feel up our pride and say good-bye
nature as we're told is just a few billion years old
according to these wheezing trees we've grown
but we've raised our ignorant fists with pride towards the sun
it proved a few billion means we've only just begun
so welcome home, welcome home, welcome home
You've finally made it here
The kitchen is a mess and the water is not clear
I am your wrecking ball waiting at the end of the night
to help justify these operations and satisfy this pointless fight
and your eyes sparkle like rust in the sun
we wiped our hands and blamed the speechless ones
I've found a reason to believe it's all just begun
So step away and lay down that loaded gun

Yeah the moon never looked at me quite like this before
Tonight I'm the apple and you're the seedy gritty core
unchain these questions and unlock that door
tomorrow we'll stick together like a poorly wrapped sore
and find our chance to follow through with this war

Noose

2011-04-02T06:09:00.000-07:00

You find it
scraping like gravel against your face
everything you think you know
is lost, not misplaced
i think I fell in love
I think I lost the war
but if there was nothing there
what am i searching for?
I found a fossil of truth
battered and abused
Left to be discovered
hanging by your fucking noose
and this time I'm discovering
that you covered up your tracks
you're not turning back
and this long treck is over
destination truth
No hands to hold
No heart to own
Fuck, I'm alone
Thought I'd make it back home
thought I'd make it well known
I've worn the armor I've out grown
so don't think of me darling
that old noose i've untied
if you're hiding your heart
I'd be searching for lies
cause we both know you've lost it
and I've lost interest in clues
I'm leaving this war tonight
and accepting we both loose

Always Wins

2011-03-27T15:47:00.001-07:00

Looking at the world, I finally have time
to put myself aside
and here I rest in this broken chair
wondering what I'm doing here
I've taken a chance, opened my heart
now he's going far and here we are
I am
sorry but I'm not sorry enough
I did what I could and now it is time to erupt
and he ghosts this world without a past
to paint all the colors he's been trying to cast
and I'll paint him spreading that uncertain smile
something I've longed to see for a while
with myself put aside
I carve every root with a lie
because I know the world as it seems
and he was all I would ever need
accepting enough is never enough
but sometimes life make the truth rough
and this city once promised more
with all it's colors all I can see are doors
and this broken chair I rest in
Has become my dearest friend and,
The truth wins in the end, it always wins in the end
So, rock away my friend

Shouldn't it?

2011-03-21T20:15:00.000-07:00

There is this place we find ourselves
standing alone
no bottle to hold
and the world seems so strange just then
the roundness is now flattened
and every song falls apart
like an off beat heart
what's going on?
it won't be long till we all crack
imperfection is a big come-back
looking at old photographs
everything was such a god damn laugh
but we lost touch and settled down
tell me, are you happy now?
sitting on your settled couch?
wondering where you'd be now
if they never told you how
when or why
you're supposed to die?
and while our poor souls are driven by fear
running away to be far from here
here becomes our buried jars
hiding who we really are
and soon we all realize there's no turning back
for your own good remember that
those empty eyes we stare into
had every intention to follow through
had every intention to remember you
standing alone
with not a thing to hold
but listen,
hold on anyway
you're supposed to die, sometime
we're all supposed to die
doesnt matter when or why
shouldn't just knowing that
make you
feel more alive?

Goodbye Sandbox

2011-03-05T09:51:00.000-08:00

Flickering, static
feeling the vibrations
around me
following footsteps
of strangers
found myself headed towards no where
but this place
was once
my battleground
now i'm running
headed towards
nowhere
to find something
that will
prove that i've
done nothing wrong
and your singing
matches my heart beat
and the noise from the churches
tickle my ear drums
but im listening
to everyone
everywhere
following them all
headed no where
but the thing
i find most appealing
is
happiness
happiness
happiness
..
so dont tell me no
dont tell me i cant go
dont tell me im not ready
because
you see
these footsteps i am following
will come back to me
and i'll pretend
this battleground
was only my kindergarten playground
and i've left the sandbox
i'm done playing this game
i hear it calling
i see it falling
im taking the chance
so dont you dare step foot in my path
don't you dare tell me i've gone too far
you
know
who
the
fuck
you
are

Answers

2011-03-01T06:14:00.001-08:00

Be it as it may
The followers of untouched trails
Find yourself a diamond
Let it be
Be it as it may
The calling for a calling
Find yourself waiting
Lose the best you've ever had
Be it as it may
The words you spill of wisdom
Catch yourself drowning
Stuck thinking too much
Be it as it may
The world will never stop
Wait for yourself too long
and die where you are

Simply Perfect

2011-02-15T10:44:00.000-08:00

You've got so many speeches
Words that flutter around bleeding peace
Gave your key to the seekers
You followed her home
Landed in sheets, neatly spread
You held her hand as you dream't
There must have been darker nights, brighter stars
You found her, you found her
Laying in your arms and the time on the clock
Handed you the numbers back
There is no need to look here any more
Where you are is simply perfect
An image rare indeed, she's found your key
She loves you, She loves you
But one night you failed to sleep
Saw a light in the distance out of your window
Uncertain of the distance, you stood at edge
Looked back once and decided to go
As the night began to weaken you ran, faster and faster
The light was fading, the wind picked up
You seem to be close but the sun is rising
And you're losing focus
Tomorrow is making it's way to your destination
You have to get there, you have to make it
And you will
Then suddenly you crash, looking up
You've found it, you've found it now
Only to find the numbers on the clock have been replaced
With a simple message attached
"No looking back" signed-her
And an image of her sleeping
Beside her an empty invitation
But you got the message
She loved you, She loved you
she knew all along there where stars much brighter
Places in dreams that exist, something true
Because that's how she found you
Simply perfect

Un Ange De France

2011-02-08T08:57:00.000-08:00

She fell from the sky
The grass molded her shape and she laid
Felt the world holding her body down
Heavy and sound
This is what heaven must be like
She thought
This must be how angels dream
Beautifully serene
She took a deep breath
The air filled her with heart and she smiled
Felt the vibrations of the ground
Living and found
This is what music must be like
She said
This is why they strive to be alive
Afraid to die
Looking towards the sky she whispered a hint
laissez-moi rester ici juste une plus de nuit
Feeling the leaves rustle
Seeing the tiniest life in it's largest form
Molded into a solid shape a new world is born
And angels dream
Dream of ways to feel alive
What a place this must be
Where it is beautiful to die
She laid in awe
As rain drops trickled down her cheek
Closed her eyes and smiled
Dear world take into me
Her eyes matched the stars
Her soul the grass and the trees
She signaled the ships in the distance
"Please, do not fail to perceive"
Because the moon surely will fade
As will the stars in the sky
But the beauty is everywhere
Holding both you and I
And angels dream
Dream of ways to feel alive
What a place this must be
Where it is beautiful to die
Where every element matters
And every piece is in place
Where imperfect is still perfect
And every heartbeat's a race
She stood from the ground
Aimed her face towards the sun
Cher monde,
Je suis vivant! Je suis vivant!

I Just Wanna Be Your Lover

2011-02-01T18:16:00.001-08:00

She's happy, she says
in her creaseless black dress
following the moon with her eyes
she's fine, she's fine
the world melts in two
caught her staring at you
sewed by the sight, she says
it's alright, hey, it's alright
you found peace in her songs
as she connects palm to palm
but the truth you can't face
knows some voids can't be replaced
and she'll smile and wave
claiming to be happy again
but this time theres no moon
no sunlight to swoon
only the reflections of a touch
that were far too self involved
silence creeps where the camera waits
a surprise ending and the flashes penetrate
wearing your last minute tuxedo vest
she's happy, she says.

Tales

2010-12-01T07:53:00.000-08:00

Theres a simple tale told by our fathers
a hint of words, a crystal ball
I may be wrong and despite my thoughts
I have nothing else to believe in
from where I stand a fire holds my hand
There will always be War, there will always be tears
and it reminds me that if I sit and watch
and count every piece of gold I've got
I'll learn not a thing and I am learning
to believe in those tales, take a hint
I may be wrong and despite my thoughts
I have nothing else to believe in
If you want, come along, pack a dream
Because nothing is what it seems
Fall in love, work for free,
Die with stories to pass along and leave
Cause there are those stories told before
Reminding you that living careful kills you more
It's not easy but they are right
So I leave tonight.

Tonight

2010-10-21T23:25:00.000-07:00

Your side of the bed
is where I
want to be
and i hear you breathing
your heart beating
please stay with me tonight
I felt the world crashing
my pulse pounding
you werent there
I felt scared
so I just stared
painting pictures with my eyes
imaging your voice whispering
"It's gonna be alright"
Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
but you know
when my heart's the only one to hear
I discover my greatest fear
I need you and
I want you here
If that's alright
I'd like to share my place with you tonight

The Man in Black

2010-10-11T13:39:00.001-07:00

The man in black
he says
Don't you worry bout a thing
cause I
and we
will find the end without seeing
so we circled the pits
felt the fire on our skin and laughed
Now the man in black sleeps
covered in snow
deep beneath the insults
felt world winds
gave a song to the sky
never took a dime
but I always felt his pain
without seeing he saw
the suffering of us all
so he suffered with a smile
to prove
it ain't so bad
the man in black
he says
even if it kills ya
at least you were worth killin'
that's got to mean something
so don't you worry bout a thing
cause I
and we
will find the end without seeing
the world will never be what it seems
and if you see it
you're not living
Now the man in black sleeps
covered in snow
deep beneath the insults
felt world winds
gave a song to the sky
never took a dime
but I always felt his pain

Fading Hours

2010-10-07T21:57:00.001-07:00

From the top I clung
Felt a near sense of change
God must have felt you near me
Senses follow the scent
I lay whispering words I am unsure of
There you stood
Before me, proudly
Tugging on strings I have no recollection
But the silver sun felt it bitter
Hense the motions on the moon
Take it from here
I've seen better days
I'll stay behind, tonight
You'll forget these fading hours
Time will change your words
Proud will remain
Just, with your stature
Forget my name

Uganda part II

2010-09-12T01:52:00.000-07:00

So, I've been at my placement now for over a week. The first night I suffered from culture shock haha. 300 orphans all day..everyday. The orphanage needs a lot. They lack clothes, food, sleeping area, a place to eat, medical, supplies and...pretty much everything. I gave them their first still art class. It was awesome, and these kids were so good! They pick up on everything and anything you teach them and they do not forget. They LOVE to learn! I love that an they laugh and smile and are just happy kids. I adore them. I wish there were more I could give them.

I've gotten used to pooping and peeing in a hole in the ground and bucket bathing. A shower here is considered a luxury. I went white water rafting on the Nile yesterday with other volunteers and...saw death hahaha but! 5 hours of crashing into waves...flying out of the raft, getting caught in waves...was pretty damn awesome, and also...it was the effing NILE! Worth every penny!Ive made it around to some other places here, checked out other schools and orphanages and food places. Depending on how you look at it, there is either very little to do here,or a lot. I see a lot and I am getting out as much as I can.

I've caught a bit of a bug and needed medication, lost my voice haha ( which is probably a blessing to the other volunteers) but am getting better each day. Love the music here, and fun observation, on the taxis...they love to listen to Kenny Rogers ha. Also..me and Boda Boda's <3 I ride on them alllll the time now, I love them.

The other volunteers are so great. It was so goo to see them all again this weekend. Really I picked a good time to go. i <3 Them and I am glad to have gotten the chance to meet them. It is weird how that works. We come from all over yet once we met the first day it was like we already knew one another. We come for the same reason I guess, it is just a natural, sincere connection to have. Very unique and very life changing. Brilliant string theory. <3

Cheers!

First Day In Uganda

2010-09-01T04:22:00.000-07:00

I flew into Entebbe last night where I was picked up and escorted ten minutes away to a backpackers hostel. The bunks were covered in mosquito nets and I shared the room with 2 Canadian backpackers who are backpacking East Africa and 5 girls from Denmark who are here for 3 months studying nursing. They were all really awesome. I also had my first beer "Nile" haha. Typical American! lol.

I was picked up in the morning and went through Kampala and an hr away to Mukono where I am now. I am with 2 other volunteers from the UK and will meet more tonight. Exploring Mukono is really a treasure. The people here love to greet and shake your hand. I will soon ride on a Buda Buda ( most efficient way of transportation, ride on the back of a bike ha ) In order to get the my village where the orphanage is that I will teach at is by taxi then by Buda Buda. The village is Golomolo village and I will have my own place to stay in the village on a quite farm. I am excited to see it and meet the children! What an exciting journey this will be! I will also make my way to Junji, a city in Uganda that has water rafting and from what I hear...good indian food! Hell ya! Nom nom!

I am sure to come back with a lot of stories to make up for time. That is all for now! Cheers! <3

Sliding Infinitely

2010-08-16T13:13:00.000-07:00

One arm on the levy
It's about that time
the season is right
Found a dream in the water
watched it float down stream
built a raft out of wishing
missed it by an inch
and we all went falling
like children on a slide
feels like flying, hands in air
screaming we tried, yeah we tried
and we'll all go falling
once in this life
with our hands in the air
we tried, yeah, we tried
then we splash

and those ripples
they change the surface
so we build us a reason
that gave us a purpose
projected our thoughts
on the clouds and the dust
good luck to you
and misery if you find us
cause you're coming down with me!

Globe

2010-08-12T22:50:00.000-07:00

Found a few years in a jar
you've not a clue
how wonderful you are
I gave it a shake
watched us dance in the snow
come up to find you
got stuck in a globe

Dreamed you were dieing
you've not a clue
how hard I was crying
I tried to wake up
Didn't want you to hear me scream
Too scared to loose you
Got stuck in a dream

Found my kingdom with no rule
you've not a clue
you made this place beautiful
Cleaned all the waste
Built us a new home
Drew a garden with chalk
Got stuck here alone

Full Moon

2010-08-12T22:13:00.000-07:00

You've got yourself
I've got me and you
As heavy as I prepared for this
I'm no hero of my own
Slipped on a few doubts
Gave it a shot, lost the game
If only you'd understand
We've got the ocean
many years of tides
Many tricks to learn
You've got your tools in a box
It holds you down
I've got not a thing around
Ah, we promised
before we knew a promise could kill
My ties, written in due
You've got yourself
I've got me and you
and it is all I've got
All I've ever had all along
I shoulda known, I shoulda
The world you've known before
is the world I havent got the tools for
Now I float around your head
There, past-due, unread
I wish it were easier
to put this broken song back in tune
but it's a full moon

The Significance in the Undefined

2010-08-05T05:53:00.000-07:00

I stood in the road
watched the leaves run in circles
I named each flower in the garden
Compared the clouds to the sea
Understanding everything she said
will become the death of me
I remember my Grandmother
her warnings of what's to come-
Ahead you'll never find
but remember where you come from
Remember those hands you've held
The fruit you've tasted, the stories we've read
Remember this now because soon I'll be dead
so don't die untill you understand
more than the names of every cell
Just don't die before you remember well
That the undefined are the most significant
weightless and spaceless
Unconditional and forgivable
The undefined are what make this place liveable
Just remember where you come from
because this will guide you when I'm gone
Understanding might prove your not wrong
but it will not keep you strong
so remember me, remember laughing, remember tears
Remember ahead could be tomorrow, or ahead could be years
Don't die, she said, just don't die until you've won
Remember where you come from.

Weather Man

2010-07-31T07:42:00.000-07:00

An old lonely sailor once sang to me
said the world won't offer a thing but greed
bloodshed is how we will always succeed
Oh don't cry darling, tears are for war
And if crying were music we'd all be on tour

The Saddest Part

2010-07-23T09:07:00.000-07:00

Lose yourself in the false sense of security
Miss your flights, miss your chance
Develop a plan, find gold in an idea
prepare to weigh your flight down
You are falling faster than you feel
You are going to die and it wont be sad
The world will not miss you
the world benefitted from your existence, not at all
but it watched you fall with your pockets full
Landing was never the issue, you've made bail
so you thought, dream away my dear
Time is given for you to mold
I see there is a smooth ride ahead for you
but nothing worth reading about someday
You've lost yourself so soon
Shiny objects and false fortune, desire
Power was never in your hands, not once
Power changes the world, not zeros
Even with all the big words you know
You've learned nothing at all
You are going to die alone
The world will forget you were here
They'll bury you with your heavy pockets
cause it's all you'll have left
There will be a few tears
those are only good-byes
you've done nothing unforgettable
you will be forgotten
The saddest part will be the truth
The world never needed you

Happy Birthday Ballon

2010-07-19T20:13:00.000-07:00

Drawing out my maps with certainty
Spread across the floor, I am already packed
I've crashed into that wall one last time
Without question I just know my home
has always been an extended visit
I was the birthday ballon at every party
wishing the wind would un-tie my sting, let me go
It is about the reality of understanding
that understanding creates limits
Now I've got this pen in my hand
and these lines are all over and none have come to an end
because limits are for birthday parties
temporary excitement that will be forgotten after the sun goes down
and I can tell by the look in your eye
that it is time for me to find that windy day
close my eyes and wait for a release
roll up my scribbled maps and point
march to the future, solute farewell
because it is just my element
to not understand why or how
but if I shake it's hand myself, I'll find out
and when i meet limits, I'll send a postcard home
"Just in case you were wondering, I've landed, Happy Birthday"
For now my lines have promise
and my pen gave me the sailors mark to set sail
it's the perfect windy day
so Happy Birthday

TNE

2010-07-17T23:02:00.000-07:00

There's no emotions
just solid words with
well constructed sentences
Make smiles form. where open arms
are always open
cause it is the only way I know how to
touch, or get close to anything
that makes anyone someone
fore tears become no more than an act
but there is something missing
there is something passing
there's no emotion
no frame to this photograph
just a use of words
study of being, growing and knowing
there's something missing
something passing
there's no emotion
only space
only time

Leveling

2010-07-16T10:38:00.000-07:00

Through the quagmire populated with dreams
I've watched you scream for the sunlight
or any reason to believe you exist
but you hide like a child and yes
this was written for you
yes, I see right through your flighty flutes
yes, you are the reason my lungs fill and release
like some sort of super hero during the cold war
just know, if you were not to exist
my life would be purposeless
This probably doesn't make any sense at all
but life is a mystery you can not solve
so when you reach your peak of doubt
just find a place and level out
come find my place, and level out

Process the science of it.

2010-07-16T09:58:00.000-07:00

Glass glistening in the corner of a cluttered room
find the source make it believe
the shadows only search for a purpose to
hate the sunlight and the beauty of knowing
we've no idea where we are going, so you
hear the perfect summer is somewhere
I'll take you there

Find a pool with youthful fish and
oh what a time to be alive, ever lasting
amazing to know years from now all of this
will be gone, so long, so long
above the peak where hawks fly
they know you and I only hide
to continue grasping the ability to cry and lie
our bright lights only search for a purpose to
hate the stars and the beauty of knowing
we've no idea where we are going, so you
find the source and make it believe the truth
the perfect night is somewhere
I'll take you there

Sink In

2010-05-27T02:07:00.000-07:00

It sets over the sea

waves crash on the brave sailors

a plea for victory

but the force of nature carries off to the north

leading the fair-wells with a lit torch

living made it possible to believe

that living only permits us to breathe

find a comfortable cove

listen to the wind and try to sing along

let the night take us where we belong

cut off all the ropes

cut off everything you know

cause it's only a matter until then

when we let it all sink in

eventually we'll all need

a plea for victory

eventually we all need

a reason to believe

eventually we all cry out

for a reason to breathe

eventually...

we'll be face to face with the sea

light our torches and lead

a plea for victory

cause a sailor's job is to keep pace

knowing the only life guard is faith

and the force of nature carries off to the north

leading the fair-wells with a lit torch

living made it possible to believe

that living only permits us to breathe

find a comfortable cove

listen to the wind and try to sing along

let the night take us where we belong

Guessing

2010-05-10T20:19:00.000-07:00

Find a place and sit

take a look, feel the season changing

you believe in reason I believe in guessing

and guessing is only easier to understand

the secrets of the unspoken plan

Tear apart the cracks beneath you

learn to breathe like the sea

pick a star and practice it's glow

soon you'll find that's all you need to know

We're not so different, we're not built to freeze

Light weight and left to the breeze

and it's all waiting for us

who ever we believe, we've got the invite to mingle

we've got the invite to breathe

and the timing is just right

you've got nothing to lose when testing

only learning to move

only guessing.

Minutes

2010-04-22T20:42:00.000-07:00

promises are promises

made for stones and history

in a minute i'm going to prove

I love only you

Forget the clock

time is never right

until the time is right

guess what this smile means?

time came clean

ah, you said not in this lifetime

well we're still alive

and you're wrong

I loved only you all along

so watch the credits roll

make your way to the door

i saw you pause and wait for an encore

a million minutes of waiting

vanishes for one moment

i hold on to it

make a wish and squeeze it tight

the time is right

just right

gi gi lomas

2010-04-13T20:58:00.000-07:00

Smoothly sailing

through time without question

but it shows, right through

they thought of everything but you

Now we try to piece together

all we know and it shows

if we cant change the past

where else are we to go?

Cause forward wont get us far

just a step at a time

and it's about that time to rewind

to rewind to find that

life can only be what it is

and we are simply built to exist

there is no price to pay for truth

no deal to be made

everything you know now will fade

but time will live on

and words never forgotten

smooth sailing

through everything you knew

you exist cause they thought of everything

everything but you

Nestled

2010-04-07T18:59:00.000-07:00

and it sits

burrowing in my skin

filling my pores with truth

but I admit I've forgotten

how to catch the dust in the wind

and let it free, just let it be

I've forgotten how stretched

A line could be, and pretend

it never ends

where dreams begin, over and over again

now i sink

into thoughts of bother, twisting

my words into figures

I've yet to admire

swallowing the mire distance

like it were milk

and if it think hard enough

it can be.

Tonight

2010-03-30T21:01:00.000-07:00

Cement corner covered in ink

relating to shadows i've seen

questioning, words, with definitions

definitions I know, but don't feel

I watch as my intentions fade

How hollow I've become over the years

full of sentimental frames

that i'd gladly throw away someday

and never look back, not once

but truth is that I know

someday, far from here

if I'm not insane by then

I'd dream of floating by once again, weightless

thoughtless, shameless

How young, how dumb, how...

colorful the chances became

who am I? are you? are we?

are they? so bright, so lost and still

how thoughtful of you

to remember me, this cell, a familiar face

no more than a quark, it is you

knowing my name, not who I am, nor me

knowing you just the same

We are the shadows

shadows of ourselves covered in ink

in dark corners of bars

pretending we've got control

money in one hand, a drink in the other...

what do we know? not me, not you

not anyone

and when we die, we become ancestors

to the life and universe

of which will remain

Patched unrelated

2010-03-22T21:04:00.001-07:00

It's pouring

and I stand here covered

in my own filthy blood

violently thinking of

where I should be, here, now

hovering over a piece of

misunderstood faults

painted on a statue I admired

one time long, long ago

and this car is over heating

smoke from the hood emerses and id pull over

but from here I'd have no place to go

just have to head home

cause turning around

will lead to a night of speechless vessels

full of awkward silences and beating hearts

I'd rather lay alone in the dark

than debate holding you tight tonight

cause something's just not right

this cup is half full an we've poked a hole

i realize the only patch is sound and we know

we're both speechless.

Act On

2010-03-17T19:25:00.001-07:00

a light

in your eyes

shines

through the mirror

like a laser it makes you

glow brighter

grow taller and

it casts a huge shadow

on everything around you

in your eyes

there is a significant town

where only you go

it seems

only you is only you

and only

if glowing could stage the set

where you become your own

lead role

except

no one would know

cause it's a one man show

act on, act on

rehearse every line

over and over again, know your shape

every angle

and make sure when you take a step

into the world

everyone sees what you've staged

the greatest show ever made

and if no one pays to see it

don't believe it

cause that light

in your eyes

shines

and it shines and it shines

lighting the dark side below

to hand out free tickets to the

one man show

and it comes by the way that you walk

rehearsing the lines as you talk

vanishing when you've had enough

of building the stage up

in your eyes

there is a significant town

where only you go

it seems

only you is only you

and only

if glowing could stage the set

where you become your own

lead role

except

no one would know

cause it's a one man show

act on, act on

Singing Forever

2010-03-16T17:54:00.000-07:00

Smooth the wrinkles in the sheets

pretend we never slept at all

the morning will bring the sun and the sun

will set again

twisting our tongues into shapes

we never thought we could make

Time is ready to freeze

again, time has come around

we hear our words as sounds

watch the stars align and sing

we sing, for everything

for all we believe and sing cause

sometimes it's all we have left to say

to knot our fingers together

and lay

I must admit that you move me

in every way

I must say, I can sing just as loud

and if your silence became a routine

I'd sing and I'd sing

forever

The Swaying

2010-03-15T22:44:00.000-07:00

Fist raising

the sun is setting, I am

shivering, waiting for the alarm

to sound, to take me home

to take me just to take me

watching the daisies sway

embarrassed by their loyalty

how easily they just let's it be

To ask for any more signs than this

I must bruise my knees and kiss

the feet of heavier thoughts

and where must one go from here?

Where must one, two, three

Where is when and when will I

Stop turning my back towards the wind

and sway, watch, just let it be, just let it

push me against this wall I have built

that uncover an unwritten destiny

Where one must two

Where I did not smile, though I wanted to

Where I stay

Where I sway

Where I shiver

We can't, but we can.

2010-03-14T20:04:00.000-07:00

Still, floating, flying, drying

sappy songs play on the radio

I leave it be tonight

tonight is going to get by one verse at a time

find a comfortable state of mind

stay, relax, lay back

coast into a genuine time, a moment

and don't let go of it

find that life can be animated, or manipulated

...so it was the stars in the sky

that reminded me

life is only time and we are here to be

accidentally part of it's chemistry

we are only part of it's chemistry

so open your mouth and speak like the stranger you are

a language is a language is a language.

Words are unspoken without the walls to repeat it

defeat it, we exist, we exist, we are this

Now, sink into oblivion and find out

our heads are larger than our mouths

We can't eat what we think we can, we can't...

but we can, yeah we can, we think we can.

So I am...

Still, floating, flying, drying

sappy songs play on the radio

I leave it be tonight

tonight is going to get by one verse at a time

find a comfortable state of mind

stay, relax, lay back

coast into a genuine time, a moment

and don't let go of it, don't let go of it, don't let go.

Sure, Sure?

2010-02-24T20:50:00.001-08:00

I'm not sure of, too many things

I'm not sure why or how

Here is a place found beneath the rubble

I'm sure, I'm sure I lay there

Hoping to shine bright, to shine

just to shine for you

I'm sure, I shine just for you

But I'm not sure

You'd shine for me too, I'm not

Sure of too many things

If I set this place on fire

With words that cause sparks

I'm sure it is only cause I Lo-

I L-Oh, I L-Oh-V

It's cause I just can't find you alone

I just can't see

I'm sure, you're there

Above the rubble, I found you once

You were waving hello Im sure

you were smiling too

I was sure I, I Lo, L-Oh, L-Oh-V

You, I'm sure

It ills you to hear me scratching

Outside your door but I just want in

I'm not sure, of too many things

I'm not sure why or how

but I'm sure I only see you

I only see you now

I'm not sure of, how bright

How shiny I need to be

For you to see me

Here is a place found beneath the rubble

I'm sure, I'm sure I lay there

Hoping to shine bright, to shine

just to shine for you

I'm sure, I shine just for you

But I'm not sure

You'd shine for me too, I'm not

Sure of too many things

Town of Crowns

2010-02-21T20:24:00.001-08:00

A man, followed him here

Roads cracked and crumbled

He is looking for trouble

Now he looks but can't find

Halos all expired, it's been a long, long time

Who, just who

Do you think you are?

Waving your crown up high like that?

Can't you see it now?

We all have crowns, we all

have crowns of our own

We can't even remember your name

Now you're just the same

as you were, when you were, where you were

When you were no body to anyone else

except yourself, except your health, except

this time, if you put down your crown

We won't make a sound, if you don't make a sound

Cause you won't find no trouble here

Can't find trouble when there is no fear

Can't find a thing but yourself

Think About It

2010-02-18T18:06:00.000-08:00

Because

I said, one day long ago

there would be glory

there would be

polished gates, there would be

everything, anything...

you desire.

In the depth of the world

you just have to

you just have to get there

and I'll pray if that's what you want

I'll dance if it'll get you to move a little, find

where you belong, find

where you belong

cause it wont be long

until the sun dries us all up

and it wont be long until

we drown ourselves willingly

suffocation, rejection, happiness

it's what we live for, live, live, we

are life we, are life and we live

for words we developed to learn that

we can not possibly learn it all but we can

understand, we simply understand

if that's what it takes, think of

death as an idea

mark your place, mark your name

and remain

simply remain as you are

and were

it's what we're here for.

Crooked Lines

2010-02-16T19:20:00.000-08:00

I pull up under the street lights

wait a few seconds then proceed

slam my foot to the pedal

what am I doing here?

The radio plays only silence

The moon, half glow, it knows

I've got no reason, I've got no reason

and it was then I wished

I were someone else, somewhere far

Far where no light exists

Draw a map with crooked lines

it'll read, you'll get there someday

if not today

maybe tomorrow, across the city line

through the foggy haze, past the trashy shrines

cement history where it belongs

move on

keep moving on

till the silence becomes a song

a real song

Time is just...time.

2010-02-11T19:16:00.000-08:00

Fact is an irrational statement

Fact is for sure a lucky guess

I know this.

And the song played quietly

adding noise to our silence

so bright it could blind us

but even though the words are sappy

they make me happy,

more and more.

Cause here

in this happy, sad, sad song

is where I belong

where I belong my thoughts rhyme

and time is just time

and fact is just a lucky guess

I know this.

I guessed somewhere, somehow

you would love me now

It is now, do you love me?

do you love me?

You love me cause I said

you'd love me eventually

Eventually, is just time and time

is just time

Go.

2010-02-06T16:46:00.000-08:00

Life

Absolutely

Consists

What

You

Can Dream

Heart Beats

Whatever

Takes You

Somewhere

Far

From

Here

Where You

Spin In

Circles

Squares

Triangles

Angles All

Angles

Point

The Direction

That Tell

You

Fear

Not Here

Not

Here

Where

Your

Heart

Beats

You'll Regret

Life

Now

Before

You Can't

Just

Cause

Life Is

Cause

Life

Consists

Of Dreams

Questions

That Tell

You

Answers

Only

When

You

Meet

Death

Cause Eventually

Are

All

Going To

Die

Eventually

Before

You Can't

Just

Tell Me You

2010-01-27T21:11:00.000-08:00

Close your eyes slowly

and tell me what is in front of you

a road, a stone, a wall..maybe....nothing?

tell me what drives you, inspires you

what grabs you by the mind and drags you

to places you tried so hard,

to forget, now

tell me....

what is real? what is touchable?

or what is imaginable?

when mountains cover this place

so deep beneath the side walk

which you stumble upon

to find a cross walk that guides you

with man made paint

safely to the other side

a cross walk is a guide, only a guide

a 2 lined white lie

you could do it alone all along

you just never knew it cause

here you were planted

you grew, grew more, then blossomed

fed on a schedule, how were you to know

what you didn't know?

How were you know what laid below?

How?

Finally an eraser

taking away the confusion, making

it disappear, for now you

walk alone

you walk alone

and it's beautiful to see your steps

find their way, even through mistake...

what is most important in life is,

to see life as a gift, not a choice

if you have a voice, raise your voice

if you are given choice, what's your choice?

and question is only a chemistry

just be, just be, just be

what you are naturally

no power is higher than you

unless you allow it

so if you're not happy

dont allow it.

What drives you, inspires you

what grabs you by the mind and drags you

to places you tried so hard,

to forget, now

tell me....

what is real? what is touchable?

or what is imaginable?

When dreams are all you have to hold

tell me

your name, your real name, tell me you

tell me everything.

God Damned It

2010-01-24T09:32:00.000-08:00

Well we are the God damned
you thought it was God you said
You thought, well you think too much
Use God as crutch
You name all the stars after
people you thought you knew
Well..that's nothing new
No, that's nothing at all
You have so many cans in the kitchen
unopened but you are starving
It's all God's fault, all God's fault
that it is nothing you asked for at all
We'll we are the God damned
and you are the boat full of too much thinking
and I'd be damned if I save you from sinking
you'll just bring me down too
Your conscience watched the world turn it's back on you
But it is all God's fault, yea it's all God's fault
that you can't move your bones alone
You thought, well you think too much
and it's my fault cause I don't care enough
Well we are all the God damned
and God dammit! God dammit! God damned it...
You thought it was God, you thought
well you think too much, just not enough

Dam

2010-01-22T07:10:00.001-08:00

And the beaver
continues to builds the dam
the water is willing to stick around.

Simple notes

2010-01-15T17:43:00.000-08:00

It's raining outside, it's cold, it's true

Take a peek into your reflection in the shallow pond beneath you

I hear it singing softly, you are swaying

and Im catching your tears as they leak

if there are words to say, bury them here to keep

watching the guitar player pluck at his strings

he is picking the notes making ripples in the stream

maybe now is all that is meant to be

a single celled organism growing beautifully

i am a leaf catching every drop as it falls

you hear every word, every hint as i call

your name here you rest your head against mine

the world may be falling apart but this time

I know we'll make it through cause

i have you

So i write this story

cause i know how it began

and i'll continue writing this story till i know

how it ends

and if it seems the notes the guitar player plays

are out of tune, in June, it's quite soon

I'll always come back for you

Shhhh..it's about to start...

2010-01-11T18:35:00.000-08:00

You are a whispering cell

in the belly of a tiny girl

following threads of shiny silk braids

that grew from the ground and winded up tightly

through the slow rusting bars on her cage

for certain she knows if she sings in tune

with a song of a victorious time she once knew

the shape of her body will fall into place

covered in daffodils and malleable clay

you'll mold her into the veins to your heart

place her name where it cant tear apart

follow it down, to a whispering cell

in the belly of a new tiny girl

covered in strings, tied up in thread

connected to wood dancing over her head

held with the thoughts we can not explain

till her tiny bones are your only remains

life is the dream, dreams are the truth

if the sky isn't blue to you then it's true

our bodies are puppets, the earth is our stage

and we are part of the best show ever made

Hollow Bones

2010-01-04T18:05:00.000-08:00

We found our way down an avenue

full of broken bricks and shattered glass

and through your slurring words i made

a pact we meant not to take seriously

as the slush we kicked around

smeared it all together, i fell into

your arms forever to kiss

that swaying promise

but the walls seem to crack and stumble

onto the concrete ground we call captivity

our center of gravity

buried deep below this ground

i find the roots of where belonging

is the longest journey and

here you breathe

next to me, faithfully

so beautiful it must be a dream

an illusion from some other time i have

no right to believe in

when the winds picked up

we swayed in synchronization watching

the birds spread their wings and

take advantage of the harsh winds

then fly away

My Country Song, Sing-a-Long

2009-12-28T20:22:00.000-08:00

Blink, blink, blink

inside of you i see

the world and what it should be, and

im there

singing a long with your favorite songs

la, la, la, la, la

and if i shall die

i pray for the radio to play

the same songs, ill sing a long

la, la,la,la,la

as im fading into my last thought

i just want to think of you i just want to

bury my dreams into you, and if you think

im crazy or out of the norm

you know me enough to know that

I make you smile and I make you blush

and if the world don't know nothing about us

then

what do they know about love?

what do they know?

about your favorite songs? it must be absurd

i know every word

i know you i know

i love you

and if i die i hope i prove them wrong

i hope the radio plays every song

and i'll sing along

la,la,la,la,la

you know i love you

Your Aperture

2009-12-20T18:26:00.000-08:00

Here, where it was open for long exposure

a build of such thick sheets of fog over the hills have

such desire to be captured in the night

here swings the golden swoon, you shook me

filled me with soft pedals and spotted stems

several days I was drifting in what I believe

was a heaven, your voice bellowed

until it shook the graves down below

in the morning the sun spread out to greet

us, you widened your desire to capture it's reach

and the leaves rattled and battled to be first to fall

I questioned the reality of it all, could it be

The wind hollowed my bones and drifted me

toward a moving front full of

weathered seeds from back home to drop and grow

genuine speckles of color, it's the most beautiful sight

ive ever seen, could it be?

this place i stand smiling holds

a stretch of autumn, but before too long

the snow will come with it's own song

these beautiful leaves will be gone

still the river, it races to a mapless destination

flowing on a gut feeling

wishing the fog will be settling up ahead

nestle my intentions back into a tree

mold my bark to read, you have

gotten the best out of my palms and i said

I would have grown more branches

if the feeling was not quite right

for the perfect light, i would have opened myself wide

i would have

gone further down the fiery road if you told

me, nothing would be if nothing could be

by the arch of the horizon, i know your logic

fell deep into a trance and i dance on top

stomping my toes into the truth

its your first intention and its loose

falling freely into a well of giants

hungry for failure and silence

with your permission, I'll swallow each seed, then

you could fill me again with soft pedals

and spotted stems

cause it's my intentions that stroke the skies

admiring your eyes that capture such light

if I'm wrong then the rivers will slow

their pace, and I'll go

for the winer, let the snow cover my leaves

and believe i was in heaven

when the thick fog clouded my eyes

in the rattle of your bellowing, for once

i was alive, excuse the giants pounding their chest for more

if thats your cure, let it be and I'll sure

the flattened plains that spring will come

you'll open your desire and capture the sun

and please in the rain, find yourself looking over the moon

i just hope youre thinking of me when I' m thinking of you

i'll know then, when I turn spotted and pruned

you'll be back soon

Holes

2009-12-15T20:06:00.000-08:00

My hands are red, full of blood

Pacing in circles, shouting and singing

Here is the place i found myself escaping

Carving my name into a tree

Here is the place that imprisoned me

We are ghosts of those songs

we heard long, long ago

and you know, it may be sad

but it wasnt all so bad

The weeds they grow fast, cover

every square mile of your soul

but it fills the many holes

and the sun showed itself

long enough for the rain to wait there

slowly become vapors

and the song played on repeat

singing, la la lalala what it is to love

is to find yourself constantly digging

for the bones of where it all began

la la lalala what it is to love

is to dig searching for a friend

and la la lalala what it is to love

is to admire every beautiful view

even if we set fire to this place

These holes I dug were searching for you

Unpromising Seeds

2009-12-14T19:26:00.000-08:00

Find a little hole in the ground

scatter around, unpromising seeds

hoping maybe, one of some will agree with me

and spread a little life my way

now is not the time and it's not the place

to sit and fill my mouth with such awful taste

run my fingers down the lines of sanded wood

knowing i should and i could

trace the lines that lead to the truth

to the furthest root, covered in dirt

wait for the rain to clear then drain my shirt

wave my hands in the sky once and fold

i've never done what i'm told and i'm told

to let nature do as it will, let it be, trace your words

sing each song a little lower than the birds

because they understand how the world works

and i've learned, even if your water is loyal

seeds, they dont grow in forced soil

and they don't grow if you ask them to grow

they won't grow, no, no no

Gray and Tomorrow

2009-12-13T19:59:00.000-08:00

Some where the gray in the sky

stumbled upon the door step of the sun

Questioning why when it appears

everyone hides inside

As the pedals wash off of every flower

they spiral around the evening fog

dancing while they can, before they land

and it's about time the weather

perks up a little fun without the sun

as we watch the cars on the roads

flash their brights like Christmas lights

communicating with the stars

reminding them that we are made

of the same stuff they are

here it's not so different, we burn

glow for a while, then fade off

Life is just a word to explain

what we know nothing of

but we can laugh and we can dance

Like the pedals in the fog

With no control of the wind

we just land where we stop

and the shaking of the trees become

music, hitting perfect notes

in sync with the ocean sinking local boats

still it's okay, the gravity promises another day

and we continue on, dear gray, we continue on

so it's good when you come around here

cause down below

you shake, shake, shake it up and then you go

and we could all use a little shaken, yea it's all we

need to remind us that the sun will shine again

now we can dance, dance, dance until then

My Room, The Garden

2009-12-10T19:38:00.000-08:00

An empty space full of

useless objects, it hits fast

flew in through the window and I

felt fright breathing down my back

pressing on my chest and the crops in the garden

reach further and further into the ground

where life is sound, warm and moist

full of the kind of life I admired

unaware, just there, existing

no morals or words to pray

just waiting to be useful someday

living in one place

i dig my feet into the sheets

wrap myself up tight and believe

I can fight this disease I can

Cover myself in soil and just reach

closer to where dreams are free

where fright can't find me

where only living matters, i will

pretend this bed is my garden, tonight I

will be the place so warm and moist and pray

Pray i'll be useful someday

above me there's a story written

with white words on white paper, it reads aloud

"Be patient child, you'll figure it out"

I am a seed, waiting, in the palm of my mind

to be carried away by the wind and buried

deep beneath the lies this life leads

and before the wind let's me go where ever it is I end up

before the sun peaks, before I land, I will pray

Pray I'll be useful someday

In Flight

2009-12-10T17:26:00.000-08:00

Look hard at the reflection on the door knob

my face is like a million paintings I've seen before

I am the silent gesture that fills your mind with hope

In the deepest and darkest weather

As you lay watching the moon

Cut two pieces of the sea

It gives half to you and half to me

I promise ill remember

When the sun lets go of what was spinning

I felt that way as i was leaving

and you found

Without gravity there is no ground

As long as the world keeps turning

We'll still be burning

Here is where I learned

I could be weightless after all

because when I let the clouds loosen up

No one was there to break my fall

So here I am

Between the past and tomorrow

Smiling as the door knob shakes my hand

It smiles back, I understand

Love is only frightening when you don't know how to land

If there is a God, I swear.

2009-11-30T18:23:00.000-08:00

Make my way down the avenue of solid opinions

I've got so much more to look forward to

and the visitors took photographs

nailed them to their walls

had a hard time believing

there was such a place so involved

in searching for everything and anything but gold

and here is where you told

me,

that,

nothing is worth living unless, it's worth anything at all

and thats when I knew

I knew I loved you

I stare at the moon waiting

for that moment to fight for the dreams

cause the blood in my veins, it seems

is just your type

it's your type and I feel

their might not be a God up there somewhere

but I'll face myself soon enough

and I know if there is I swear

You are going to love me

you are going to love me

cause I prayed for you to come home

and you are going to love me

if hope is the last thing, I own

You are going to love me

and I know most of all

cause you said, nothing is worth living unless, it's worth anything at all

you know I'm worth it,

you'll know it when you find

Photographs on the walls of strangers

of me, in the rain, spelling your name

with a simple tool of a smile, a reason to live

I know you'll be back when the rain clears

their might not be a God up there somewhere

but I'll face myself soon enough

and I know if there is I swear

You are going to love me

cause I prayed for you to come home

and you are going to love me

if hope is the last thing, I own

Flightless and Webbed

2009-11-23T21:38:00.000-08:00

Clear, solid, fragile

Subtle movements engage me

I'm strung

and the spiders they watch

as I wiggle, I try, I try

breathe in the silence, say my name

Far from the city I still feel the rust

in my veins I can taste it, hear it

breathing on my skin, spinning

torture, soft, pleasing

unwrapping the romance of a failure

Call me in advance lay low and sing

'watch the spiders, watch the spiders

spin a web and catch yourself

cause I'm falling, flightless, weightless

watching the universe curl, I

crawl up to you, pucker my lips

today I exist because you exist

today I live for this

I am a stone

2009-11-09T18:48:00.000-08:00

It's the world, not you

the nature, the build

structures, no explanation

just fact

a stone in the water

will sink

and a stone that floats

is not a stone

i am a stone

you are the water

and i am sinking

but we tried

yeah, we tried

that only proves that we are human.

We Froze

2009-11-05T19:10:00.000-08:00

Found my way into a dream

I found you finding me

an ocean without a wave, we stayed

floating above the hungry creatures below

with your hand in mine

there existed no days, no time

and the world stood still

I captured your smile with a smile of my own

I was getting so used to being alone

then you found your way into a dream too

found me, finding you

just in time to watch the silence

wrapped in the busiest concrete cell

I loved you well, I loved you

far beyond the city limits, beyond all the songs I know

We were written for that moment and we froze

no ground below, or photographs to show

such a spectacular view, beautiful, like you

at the same time, I cried, and we won

We became the setting sun

Then we became the end of yesterday

It is today, the still ocean begins to wave

I fail recognize your face and your words

sting my ears, speaking how I've made you ill

and the world stopped standing still.

Deep Blue.

2009-11-02T17:53:00.000-08:00

Withering little flower

Dance for the sun

over the mountain tops of white wont you

reach for the light and i will

at some time, before the sun hides

make you mine

if it's true

then I know the deep blue

in your eyes

say it is fact that

i guess it is true

i like you

Withering little flower

Paint the ground this autumn

and come spring

if you reach for the light I will

at some time before the sun hides

make you mine

This time I swear our stars wont fade

Our dreams will project and I will

so help me god, believe in you

each taste will be promising

deep blue, my deep blue

How and Ways

2009-10-26T20:20:00.000-07:00

How do I find ways?

I don't.

I cant find ways

but ways that I can find how

I can try

because ways are suggestions

How is louder, factual, certain

I know How

and How tells me ways

to find out how

Until We Are Weightless

2009-10-26T19:23:00.000-07:00

I've decide that we are unconditionally undecided

There is no sun bright enough until there is no sun at all

it's not dark enough because the stars keep you dreaming in color

and the city lights from your bedroom window

make us forget the night exists

and your sheets...

with you wrapped up in them...

make me forget that we both know where we've been.

We plan to leave the concrete in construction sites and dream

that there's a piece of me that builds a ship with a list

of how to become weightless

but tonight

the light from your window shows you're just right

the perfect picture of a perfect life

now I find hidden in my slightly pleased grin, it hard to believe

you'd ever want to leave

So I've decide that we are unconditionally undecided

here the dark, the light, the blue skies and the night

will compare and contrast as long as we exist

your heart will stop just to beat again, and your touch

will save me over, and over again

until we become weightless.

The very bottom

2009-10-23T15:37:00.000-07:00

Final scenes on the screen

whispering, here we go again

You gave me a verse well rehersed

full of time sensitive words

then you turned away

gave me silence as a gift

a reason to forget

and how I slammed the door

as you walked right out

the words out my mouth

spoke nothing worth a damn

The clouds cried themselves to sleep

blaming me and I shut it out

For the sake of shutting it out

I shut you out, promised not to cry

I never forgot the time you said

you're afraid to die and here I lay

on the cold wood floor mumbling more

wishing it was...possible

That i'd take your silence as a gift

well, I let the clouds believe they needed to cry

gave me a reason to stay inside

for as long as you're gone the sun wont evaporate

the flood I let drown this damn place

I've lost the race, I am your face

I am so fucking sorry this passion is too late

and you wont come back you wont...

stand to watch me die

so I'll toss these sorry keys

stay locked inside knowing I will sometime realize

it was so much better for you outside

it was always so much better for you outside.

The Sun Needs A Break

2009-10-19T16:03:00.000-07:00

The sun made it's way to the end of the world

It held a torch, it said, I'm glowing, I'm going, I'm gone

I tried to just smile and say everything is okay

but the dark isn't anything worth looking forward to

you can't sleep forever, you can't dream forever

but the suns worked hard enough and ya know,

everything needs a break sometime, sometime we all need to die

So I grabbed your arm and I kissed your mouth

We walked down each avenue blabbing about

The things we could of done to save this place

Now we drift through these days

Pressing buttons and wait

for moments that will find us all leaving

to follow the sun, before we drown everything

Our conversations have a heart beat

But I can't breathe with these words in my mouth

so you asked me to speak out loud

I could try, you could try, we could laugh, we could cry

until there is no one, until there is nothing

for this noise to echo off of because

Still, the sun will be gone, on its way

So I try to just smile and say everything is okay.

A gate and a road.

2009-10-04T10:46:00.000-07:00

There's a gate

found floating in the middle of your room

there's a place out there

much more suitable for you

here your sheets feel soft, just fine

but not divine

and I'm left to wonder

what big dreams you have

will they fill your shoes with dirt?

or numbers?

I have rose from a ghost

filling the ceiling with uncertainty

and if you feel it too please let me know

how long that gate will proceed to show

how long will my invitation linger as questioned?

if it is questioned let it go, if it is a question let me know

In your room, there is no room for ghosts

so drink a cup of answers and sooth your mind

If you want to be seen, be seen divine

it's a simple remedy for an uncertain way to grow old

I'm your little rest stop on the longest, loneliest road

and you are the changing colors is my fallen autumn leaves,

but honestly, honey, you're murdering me.

Simple Machines

2009-09-29T16:36:00.000-07:00

Life

created simply

to be

questionable.

what existence can define

is what's yours

is also mine

and what is valued

is useless

when death is ahead.

A seed

A circle

fed over and over

to create

a future

green, red, dead

we will all die

and memory is a flaw

in the design of mankind

it is the design of mankind

that we wonder and discover

reasons for reasons

cause and effect

but it will all end with death

and begin with the very first breath

till there remains, nothing left

of us.

The Silent Mechanic

2009-09-28T15:28:00.000-07:00

A Calling to American Culture

Go on and build those dreams with every breath you have left and take each step as if the crust would suck you down in. Listen to the songs of the angels we made up as children who taught us to rhyme with riddles and laugh with the well-needed jokes left in the smoky skies that were waving good-bye.

Go on and build all of those mini-malls full of useless novelty when really we die with the regrets of never having a life at all. No monument for your success, no shiny new watch can tell you when it is your time to go. but they will dance to the electronic music machine like the dead will rise again, meanwhile plant those seeds that gave you the vitamins you desired. Aren’t you tired?

Go on and wave those guns in the sky through the polluted pride guided by a simple marching band that cleverly misguides our hearts to and through war. Go on and wave those flags of filthy polyester and claim the name that claims to be so divine, so divine, so full of freedom and swine. What a farm we live upon, a concrete farm and we are missing the best part of it all.

Go on and become the cover of every magazine in the isle of every commercial building full of the cheapest self fulfillment. Swipe that plastic fortune and be proud of yourself for that embossed name you got there. oh, you must feel so accomplished, so independent, so in control but no, no no no, you’ve sold your soul unintentionally long ago to prove to the world you could grow up and drown yourself in the debt that only exists in our mind like heaven exists to those scared of dieing.

Go on and fill your mouth with sneaky insults and alcohol to escape the dreams you were too weak to create. God must have thought twice. One was a great idea the second was of the mistake of making himself known long long ago. Who would have thought the light was so easy to take? A miracle cure of an illness that reflects in every reflective object. We are everything we love, we are everything we hate, we are everything life and death creates. Go on and disbelieve me and diagnose me with every psychological disability, but I know what it means to be free, to be truly free.

So go on and take it, then leave it. Let the artificial success spit down the throats of your children and their children and mold those brains into tiny machines to trust that politics know best as they put tax on each breath. Go on and call me crazy, they’ve swallowed all of the halos we had left. they promise a better future, they dance in the nicest weather, but how do you put confidence on a structure built in total silence? blindness? a superficial gesture that gathers the pastures into the electrical fence when the storm peaks over the hills, swallow those pills children and begin to write the nursery rhymes your DNA will carry on. Go on, go on, go on…go where you are lead.

June 14th.

2009-09-14T20:17:00.000-07:00

I missed you today

holding your hand, laying my head in your comfort

and the world took me back like some sort of time machine

the sky is dark, and im cuffed in your arms

today seemed like a day that never ends

it will repeat, and repeat again

and yesterday made so much sense it seems

i kinda miss you and me

i kinda miss not being alone

a place in my head to call home

and we were a weapon much stronger

than any war could use and i miss you

suddenly, now, when everything strips away

i travel back to a thoughtless place

where love built us a dam in a day

and for fun we'd knock it down and watch it all drain away

now the moon travels the other direction

it no longer races me to your room

suddenly, I miss you

calls

2009-09-13T15:54:00.000-07:00

on the drive

the sky

looked like a flashlight looking through soapy water

i thought of you

I thought a lot

and the drive seemed to end too soon

and now I'm sitting alone

having a drink, by the phone

and if you finally decide to call

will i answer to talk, will i....

have another drink

sing a couple tunes and continue

thinking of you

how mature I must seem

real life is my responsibility

but instead my heart bends and folds

and do as it is told, but I'm still getting old

older than I was the day before

I just think of you more

when i don't hear a word for days

I'm amazed, how stuck I am, how glued

to you

Yet your welcoming some other land

saying a thousand hello's a day

and i sit, i sit, i sit and wait

to catch your voice just once

where has it gone?

Watch Life Grow

2009-09-12T06:31:00.000-07:00

Sure. I'll take that as a yes.

Remove all your photographs

Find my way to some other road

Drop off this load and go

Love is only an uncertain promise

I find, time is kind but it'll change your mind

when the world you've known stands alone

On a unpaved sidewalk and folks will ride past

Flash old photographs that'll make you laugh

make you sad, make you mad, make you think

how delicate each step can be and

that's when you'll think of me

how i stole that last kiss when I promised you this

Love is an uncertain promise

and Life is no ones fault but your own

If love is to hard, let love go, let it go

and watch life grow.

Our dreams are our clones

2009-09-08T16:14:00.000-07:00

There's a silent hum

inside of me

wishing to be the finish line

eager to see

what's ahead of me

but i know it'll never be

and i sing

from above and down below

to see which breeze will capture my notes

they may not be as perfect

but good enough to hear

in one ear and if you have two, good for you

then he said

you don't have to worry about a thing

life will do as it pleases

excuses are reasons

and dreams never come true

but i feel in my bones

that we are not alone

and our dreams, our dreams, our dreams

are our clones.

There is still this silent hum

inside of me

calling me lazy but flying high above the sea

it is looking down

laughing at the clowns

i'm mingling with the clouds

it's the best movie film

and I sing

with words that won't rhyme

I have my own gallery that lies

open in the sky

hey, take a look you see, take a look at me

Then he said

science only proves what does not exist

what is proven is funless, dreamless, pointless

because there is a world not to far from dawn

and everyone is called to march upon

colors not yet named

and they've grown, oh, how they have grown...

he said to me

our dreams, our dreams, our dreams

are our clones.

Mountains are full of sight

a cliff is a delight

a sunset, beautiful yet

has the largest life i've ever seen

and he spoke to me

he spoke to me whispering

to spread the word that dreams do exist

if fact becomes a reason

live in your dreams and...

if you can tell them apart...

there is always a way out of the dark.

Trouble will leave you alone

and our dreams, our dreams, our dreams

are our clone.

Im a mountain

2009-08-23T16:27:00.000-07:00

Back to the roads and traffic lights

turn signals wink, i refuse to follow

how about those clouds shaped like your smile?

i wish i could see the sun from your angle

your shadowing is beautiful

here the mountains are flat

the fog fades too fast, everything is visible, everything is not surprising

here you learn how to recycle dreams

forget antique

i rubbed the freckles on your knuckles

read them like brail and it told me

you'll be coming home soon

and home is nothing like the view you've described

nothing is a surprise

so I'm making myself into a mountain while you are gone

i'll stand outside your window, beside the trees

steal the fog and wrap it around me

i'll do my best to make you happy

to make home worth waking up from a dream

i've not seen the things you've seen

but i've dreamt the same dreams you've dreamed

i just couldnt lift the anchor from my feet, but i know

you've fed me the strength to grow

and soon you'll be coming back home

i'm a mountain, oh i'm a mountain

covered in the greenest trees

providing the clearest streams

come home to me

Opening doors

2009-07-29T16:16:00.000-07:00

i'd like to stand in place but anchors are not promising

like the stars on a cloudy night peaking through

brighter than any war this planet could create

i will call you eventually when the signal picks up

there's a train leaving at half past two

going where dreams get sucked up through vacuums

there is a woman next to me she says

friends are never friends until they've seen the devil in you

so i guess I will never have friends again

Im always changing my mind finding bigger words

in bigger books i don't intend on finishing

and right is right and wrong is wrong

but the world must mean something if I keep singing this song

where I am completely alone and someone sings along

then i ask myself why so many people are alone

we are all made of the same flesh and bones

i will tell you my story if you tell me yours

keep opening doors.

What a life to belong to.

2009-07-27T18:44:00.000-07:00

Here comes the picture

clear as day it speaks in perfect lighting

and i lay in the grass watching the sky transform

into a few faces i find unfamiliar

so i give them all names, it was so nice to meet you

falling deeper into that note i failed to hit as a child

the sparrow flies above waving in love

a drunken, terrible, horrible dream

not to come true until the days forget to move on

what a song, what a song to be trapped upon

what a wonderful ground to be glued

what a life, what a beautiful life to belong to

and the fire will torch every object held dear

let go says the message, just let go and be free

freer than any degree of education

it is time to fly while your bones are hollow

a shell is for the frightened trapped in shoe box

with holes punched in the top allowing oxygen to sneak in

but i believe

with all of the tiny cells in my body

there is more out there then a list of do's and don'ts

can't do and wont's

there is a station with tracks on every thought

waiting for you since the day you were born

life moves along like the clouds change form

do you realize you are made of the same elements as a storm?

So, why are you so afraid of the thunder? It is only reminding you that you're here

we belong where we are and no place too far is too far

and I sing, I sing to you with every note i can reach

what a song, what a song to be trapped upon

what a wonderful ground to be glued

what a life, what a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful life to belong to.

Call it a night.

2009-07-23T17:44:00.000-07:00

There is a place in the dark of the day

where I find my words slipping, slipping away

and you call to me asking how was today

said I followed a stranger to 5th avenue

to find out his story but it's nothing quite new

and i think of your stories and places you've been

i swallow each word, its not my life but i'll pretend

so i sing out a tune by a band I dont know

i make up the lyrics just to have my own show

watch the leaves in the stream make their way out of sight

I should fight, I should fight but I'll call it a night

pick up and dial let it ring twice then cave in

head to the fridge for another brew to drink and

i will lay on the edge of the bed, call out your name

honestly I am never the one to complain

but my head is full of too many empty to do's

all I have room for is a bunch of i miss you's

No huge mountain , or valley, or ancient ruin

can do to me what you do to me and

I will give up the world to be by your side each night

just to keep you near, then I'll fight, ya I'll fight.

Shake this town

2009-07-21T17:11:00.000-07:00

A slow paced train on the tracks

making the echos shake the town

in the night of the sixteenth hour

i smell your scent tease my heart

and it follows me around

i stumble to the bed and lay on my back

watch the shadows paint the ceiling geometric

i write your name in the air with my finger

it'll show if i ask it to

close my eyes and it is autumn

the leaves are falling and you're sitting across from me

leaning back enjoying the view, and you

smile back at me, holding my hand

this is not a dream you say, this is

a dream come true and you

hold your finger in the air and write my name

say, it'll show if i ask it to

the world meets complete

all emotions piece together and i open my eyes

geometric meets the tracks

shake this town, keep shaking this town

5'o clock news

2009-07-08T18:11:00.000-07:00

I stood on the corner of broad and 16th today

watched the movement of each soul

captured as many faces as i could and wondered

if any of them watch the 5'o clock news

or find comfort in the sound of public blues

how many of them are happy?

how many of them have souless shoes?

and every traffic lights a liar

every stop sign strapped in weapons

i feel like im standing in war

with no armor on, no uniform to present

but no one is watching, no shooting

and the traffic makes more cries than the soldiers

hiking through 2 white lines

there is a man down on the corner

begging to not be left behind

a little girl passes by and blind to the blood

he shed in a cup and i capture myself in a reflection

of the luggage shop window

with a uniform on and a gun in my hand

and im ready for battle, im covered in blood

im on the 5 'o clock news

waving my hand to see if it's really me

but no one stops in shock

no cries of terror, no fights to fight

and im not alone, standing in souless shoes

a flat dark place surrounded by blocks and blocks

of soldiers all making their way to their stations

5 o' clock news reports

there is for once, no bad news today

but the good news is, it says to me, the good news

I am not alone, we are not alone

the world is not alone today

the good news is, there is no bad news to report

and i feel so glad to be alive.

For Now.

2009-07-06T19:34:00.000-07:00

Now I sink into a bed of thoughts and drift away into the lost of final moments i gave my heart to someone far away.

Now I hum the slightest tune of all the notes you watched them bloom and cuddle with the softest room of oxygen and dust.

The days I long to hold you tight catch your dreams and fight your fights and feed your brain with all thats right and i know i will someday soon

For now you are some kind of far away and nestled in the quietest place where you belong for the night, you teach me all that's right.

Beating hearts

2009-07-02T04:36:00.000-07:00

Tonight the sheets feel like an electric wave

it glides up my legs into my mind

where i find myself constantly thinking about where you might be

without me

i toss and turn until i lift myself up

into the night so i drive and i drive

because only in moments like these we feel alive

only moments like these, I..stop

to ask myself your name and spell it three times

can i say it, can i say it, can i...

stop thinking about you for just one moment?

how i envy those who are not distracted by beating hearts

because i am far from sane, and i am

far from you, today

i have this little habit of taking a drive

and i drive, and i drive

until i come back a little less blue

with souvenirs and a new set of sheets

and i will finally spell your name without a tear to smudge the ink

but ive hidden the keys for now, left an empty tank

i've seen a new world and i have you to thank

Tonight feels like the perfect movie

for the perfect song to move me along and jitter my bones

to beating hearts, beating hearts, beating hearts

where I know for certain, you keep mine beating strong.

Blooming

2009-06-29T19:33:00.000-07:00

Fine as the water can fill the hole

ive felt this before i know, i know

that silence is matter and mass is the tears

i let slip through my fingers

you are away you are happier there

i hold on to something im not sure it is here

but something about something

there is a town i could find

with a little light on, a little light on

but music is guiding and its hard to leave

when most songs i hear remind me, of

everything beautiful and everything kind

a wishful amusement a comforting sign

that flowers do bloom

in the light of the sun

when tonight will come shining

because the hard day is done

planted

2009-06-28T21:51:00.000-07:00

Dug a hole. Buried a seed, maybe two. watched it drink. watched it grow. and with little vocabulary. I learned what life was.

Dream Catcher

2009-06-11T18:42:00.000-07:00

Here a dark night is rare

but i still, wish

i could be feeling your words

watching you talk wish i could be

the dark night over you

helping you sleep at night

your comfort dream catcher

like a tool you need to survive

stuff me in your sack and keep me dry

carry me to the top of every mountain on the east coast

and i will

protect you from the outside world

i will protect you from doubt and shame

when love meets no boundries

i hope you cross every boundry you can

and if you allow me to

ill live every adventure through you

happily your comfort dream catcher

how to prove.

2009-06-04T18:15:00.000-07:00

the day is gone, the sun has set the alarm

now i wait for the next cloud to sing

happy birthday

they scream instead of sing

and i swear little by little hell is whispering

go back to bed

but the sheets cover my head

blocking the light through the window

im sheltered but i can still feel the wind blow

far from the places i dreamt

would be perfect, but perfect is a myth

a full heart is a wise heart

they said, learn to live with it

so the blood in my veins run thin full of asprine

and alcohol, to watch my tears fall

splashing into the shapes of animals and sky scrappers

the clock has changed but it is later, later than..

a reason to do what i can to fill my mind up with optimism

because anything would be reason worth living

but it is hard to see anything when nothing fills the mold

if there is nothing then the word alone is something to hold

aint it? cant it be true?

happiness is just a thought away they say

just think about it and it'll be easier than you think

but my boats, i build , i build them to watch them sink

so some time past my time an explorer can find

what i meant, what i was meant for

for sure. optimism set in. im happy again.

but the wind is still cold and the clouds, they still scream

now i dont want to wake up

i know, ill open my eyes and have to do it all over

pretend there is luck in four leaf clovers

send my prayers to the sky when man made prayer

like screaming in the middle of nowhere

itll only cause an avalanch and you tell me to be rational

but rational seems to be a bit more insane than me

to believe the bullshit written on the walls of D.C

democracy, try humanity and resting on the thought that

we will never undo to others

as they do undo to you

but i was thinking that maybe the world is drunk

I'm just sleeping on a rock in the middle of muck

slowly sliding off a mountain and ill catch my breath

wake up to real sunlight

finally admit you were right

but the clouds are still not singing

happy birthday, happy birthday to me

so they scream, this..is not..a dream

this..is not a dream

and this is not..a dream

but i know somehow, ill prove to you

i can do unto you

what a wise heart is meant to do

prove that life is more than a law

a guide line to be moral

that love is more than just a word

because there is more to a nest than the birds

i could hold my breath until my face turns blue

to prove that this is how i know

i love you.

walking backwards

2009-05-29T16:38:00.000-07:00

its been a while now

i said im gonna write this to recite this

now the rain is coming down and i can only

repeat your name

even though i know for certain

you dont feel the same as me

what can I say?

I'm the sucker for closer nights

for more hugs and less fights

now i turn to you and ask

that if maybe inside you might

think that you could love me

but it's all in my head, you said, you said

baby, turn out the lights and go to bed

now I am lost spinning my wheels to drive

until I find the switch to the light

when you return i just want you to know

you are too swell to sit and weep

if the world gave me anything

it was watching you dream in your sleep

now that your back home, it's so good to have you hear

but when the lights are out, i dissapear

im trapped inside a song, singing along

the lyrics will lead me astray

where i know, you'll love me someday

with a picture of you

2009-05-28T15:32:00.001-07:00

Sitting here watching the branches shake

this kind of makes me, makes me, make

the image of a future erase and recreate

decisions, decisions

I'm packing my things

I'm moving to tennessee

maybe tomorrow I'll choose to move to alaska

i will bring a few items and a picture of you

to remember the summer, to remember the dew

what i have here, I dont have here

maybe i will there, or there, or there

this is just a cradle i've rocked in far too long

same old images, same old nursey songs

and i can hum along, i can hum along

to the sound of me leaving

take a few steps forward, deep breath and smile

with a picture of you

now the branches shake, i think they are waving good bye

good bye bye bye, good bye bye bye

im going to tennessee, im going to alaska

I'm going to places the future didnt expect

now im the unexpected and you're the love I knew

with a picture of you, with a picture of you

even if i dont return, remember me as a rocket

with a picture of you, i'll have home in my pocket

what, what, what

2009-05-27T16:51:00.001-07:00

the smell of your happiness

simmers off of me like a hot summer day

and you make the lakes more welcoming

you make me feel more like i should

more than just a scientific replay

cause when my world comes crashing down

you'll put it back

and i know your not even around

just by hearing your voice I know its true

I wouldnt feel as real without you

would I be too dependent if i said

I need you so I can write a novel

would i be the fool to admit that

I'm glad you were born i love you

If i believe in no God i believe some magic is true

what, what , what, would i be without you

what, what, what would i be? a tree?

a stupid drone waiting for the next drop of food?

but you, you, you

make me feel real.

Follow the Dust

2009-05-22T06:00:00.000-07:00

the dust makes it's way to the core
what a story you have there sir
graciously floating, life is perfectly sane
dipping naked into a pool of school fish
before you left I thought maybe the world
would give me the heart to remain still
but i watched the dust dance past me
come along, now girl, come along
the suns gravity was a bit too weak to ground
my body in motion, my thoughts all around
and i spoke not one word, my mouth seemed to run
on and on, on and on, on, on, on
the core waves it's flags, I cant understand it's face
when you're gone I find it hard to sit in place
i think the sun has decided to shift the blame on me
because this just ain't where the world should be, be, be
from where I float, it's already flooded
I've survived drowning though my blood is cold blooded
and without a sound, a blurry vision of the facts
you drift into a new world, absent from my tracks
and the dust goes girl, come along, come along
I leans on the notes and cry on the shoulder of new songs
to feel you waving, it's where you should be
as for me, I'll be there, eventually

matter of time

2009-05-20T18:14:00.000-07:00

Not the end of the world

she says

not the end of the world

just a little taste of letting go

just a little taste of another road

more steps more names

new songs, new flames

a silent stutter on a mindless trail

I'm kinda thinking maybe this time i will sail

far from here and pop the bubble that's unpopable

nothing is unpopable, unstoppable

she says

no time to sit, not in shape enough to run

i think ill have me another look

above the wooden wheel I've spun

a great dream made by a great dream fulfilled

your foot prints keep my proud but still

i know the tracks of you, this will

leave you hungry for more and in my bed, never again

have you lay comfortably upon it the same

not the same

its not the same

if i am left behind some day i will catch up

but dont wait for me, you've made it far enough

far enough to not look back, to say i love you, or wave

i understand ill see you again some day

we wont be the same, no, we wont be the same

but tell me your story honey

ill tell you mine

smooth sailing, smooth sailing

in a matter of time, time, time

Adam

2009-05-18T18:50:00.000-07:00

the fog warms the mountains

it is the morning i came to see you

found you smiling in the middle of an unknown

where i knew i loved you

surrounded by valleys and dead end train tracks

you finally feel you belong

a time line you are creating

a new tale for a new song

and there is no one in this world more proud

to tell the tale of you, like i do

no more proud to know a dream catcher

that you've become

now i sit in my repeated life

whisteling tunes that might convince me to go

but without you, i dont think id know

how to follow a star, or find my heart if its not there

i'll take the frequent fogs, simple hellos and good byes

because if life has no definition

you are life in my eyes

and if God made it so hard to believe

that heaven is right where you stand

i understand, why you cant

repeat the footprints you've circled more than once

now you are a drifting boat

on an uncertain stream

and to you this is what life means

though i may not see, the things you see

I will remember the sky

the subtle wind that put that look in your eye

you were happy to see me, that's all i could need

there may not be a definition

but you are life to me.

Reason.

2009-05-06T03:10:00.001-07:00

I've dreamt of higher places

then I realized

the only time you are in higher places

is when it is in your own head

so the world must be an illusion

a sneaky rendering of a fiery pit

an abstract painting painted by an insane man

who seems to be sane after-all

our senses are but nature

a veiny river that co-signs for our existence

our reasons are reasoned

only unjustified and saturated

we sleep to remember

we dream to forget

the un-settling sounds of the hell we've created

taking chemistry by the mouth to ease the pain

only to feel it again

because it takes you to higher places

because you can't make it alone

because you refuse to make it alone

come to reason with reason

i've finally realized that higher places are what we make of them

created by our senses, absorbed by our thoughts

carefully constructed, unintentionally hard to reach

because we all want what we don't have, can't touch

how I once denied our intelligence

we are intelligent after-all,

intelligent for our ignorance

End of the day thought.

2009-04-29T16:49:00.000-07:00

we breath the same air

we've known since we came to this place

and the stars have always been too far away

but you came along and showed me the world

through the smallest opening you could find

i felt your hand touching mine

now it is time to catch another day

of leaning against you in the shade

guiding my fingers through the lines on your palms

losing myself in the words of your songs

floating, hopelessly, in circles

landing on a soft bed of metaphors and rhymes

stretch in time, your hands promise me tonight

will be the best night of my life

you've made every night

the best night

and every dream wishes to be real

to feel the way you make me feel

a thumping heart out of control, it seems

you're the only one for me.

Trees

2009-04-20T18:20:00.000-07:00

I can't say it's the weather

or the shade of the light painted on the walls

it's not the words I miss you

or the sound of hums I crawl

its the point you reach before sleep

and the point you find waking up

when a cup of coffee is peaceful

and time alone is wearing off

when i watch a tree dancing

to the sound that nature sings

it's the feeling of warmth from far away

an acoustic memory

i could wish you here right now

to sing my breathing dreams away

then find myself buried inside

a song i could never play

as you prance the word with fossil feet my dear

these notes I'll soon be vowed

the only song i want to sing

is the song that will be now.

Appalachian Trail

2009-04-16T16:30:00.000-07:00

Its now a time when you decide

how to reach for the knob and open doors

Now i watch you vanish for a while

I hope you find what you are searching for

I will wait here drifting softly to sleep

until i feel your arms around me once more

when the wind picks up, when the heat cools down

i hope you find what you are searching for

The greatest reason for living at all

Is to conquer all you fear

as you find your way through valleys and trees

I conquer all of my fears here

To survive with out seeing your face

wrapping my arms around your waist...

is the hardest thing I will face...

while you are gone, the city sleeps in my eyes

until you open my door

while you are walking those dreams

I hope you find what you are searching for

i will miss you.